It seemed a normal Sunday. Went downtown, studied, waved to Dad who was off on a trip to Delhi, and fell asleep reading Vikram Seth.

Then suddenly, it was anything but a normal Sunday. Dad called at around 1900hrs and very coolly remarked that although he was fine, the flight he was in (Indigo Flight# 334, Goa-Delhi) had been hijacked and had made an emergency landing. My first sleepy impulse was to ask whether he was joking. My next impulse: shock and a mingled feeling of helplessness and determination to do something. Anything. 

Hijacks, terrorists, shooting, trauma- words that reverberate through every living room in the world. Mine too. The closest I would have got to the terror of terrorists is through my wild imagination. One of my childhood nightmares was the thought that someday, we might have to call one of those railway helpline numbers which would flash on Doordarshan and scrouge for information. Blasts in Delhi, Hyderabad, Bangalore, Mumbai, Kashmir would glue me to the television, phone and email and wrench my insides as the entire country watched real-life tragedies unwind on air.

But that was it. Not more. Slowly, as many others in the blogosphere have pointed out, we as a people are perhaps becoming immune to bad news. But I am sure that there are still people around the country whose blood boils every time they hear of such incidents, but are unsure of what they can do to help. 

Help. That is what I wanted to do. Desperately. Sitting in Goa. With my father in a supposedly hijacked plane surrounded by NSG commandoes in an isolated bay in Delhi. 

I think that is when the reality of what is happening around the world struck me. It is one thing to watch and read about terrorism and conflict situations, another to be a part of the entire situation. There is an excess of anticipation, where each cell is tuned to every syllable of information that can be gleaned from NDTV and CNN-IBN and family in Delhi and elsewhere. There is fear, of course. But overriding everything is that rush of adernaline, which made me want to do something. Anything. Co-coordinating folks in Delhi on the phone is one thing, being below the aircraft strategizing to capture the ‘unruly element’ and delivering the passengers and crew to safety is another. 

Yes, there are better people handling the situation, and everything is under ‘control’. As I write, Dad is waiting for his baggage in the airport complex. The passenger who threatened to blow up/hijacked/traipsed drunk/______ (insert random reason) has been detained by NSG Commandos and the Delhi Police is also on field. And oh, his 1730 hrs text message ‘reached dilli’ just arrived (Jai BSNL). My brother is anxiously waiting for him to come out, although less anxiously than we all have been for almost five hours now. 

Everything seems fine, the ordeal or the ‘mid air drama’ as the news puts it, seems to be over. 

But somewhere, deep down, there is a fire which has blown out of proportion. A fire which will only be strengthened by news coming in about the grit of the pilot, passengers and security forces in Delhi. A fire which even days, months, years after this incident will not be doused.

I have read, thought, wrote for what seems like a previous age -that we are one country. Terrorism or activities mimicking the infliction of trauma is a problem which could affect any of us, that the victims never asked for anything they got. 

There..my first lesson in 2009. 

It could be any of us. Anytime. Anywhere. 

There is no amount to the planning we can put in, precautions we can take. People I know avoided flying over the UAE in the nineties for fear of disruption, a friend visiting Delhi was prohibited to shop at the markets bombed last year. But there is a need, an inherent need to have systems in place. Which Delhi has handled really, really well. I shudder to think what would be the plight of the passengers if the route was Delhi-Goa, for I somehow cannot see such an effective response mechanism being activated at the earliest in this susegad land. 

Kudos… and grateful appreciation. 

More on this soon. 

This is Us. 

Crunchy on the outside, warm and fuzzy within…

Nutty inside-out!

Happy Anniversary, mes-amours! 

xoxo

 

An Ode to ‘The Forgotten’

They say I am too young
To step into their adult shoes
But insist I am too old
To squeeze into my blue-and-pink muse

I close my eyes to them
While my mind’s eye sees stars and sequins
Give way to laughing eyes, to whispered voices
To intoxicating scents of pine and pecans

Splashes of yellow, sprinkles of sanguine
Light streaming in with a weak whirlpool
Of glistening dust, through dainty spider webs
Bringing a hope of hope and a renewal of renewal

Dear street-smart-Friend-proud-at-four-when-I-was-three

I remember the bandhini tents we built
The wolves we destroyed in the guise of peacocks
With the rustle of your frock; you taught me
That purity of heart can cross the highest roadblocks

Hola guitarist-from-Brazil-forty-something-when-I-was-four

Strings, tabs, chords, plectrums
Wafted to me on clouds of ocean surf
You led me to summery decks, to billowing crow’s nests
To tirelessly seek a resilient lone blade in a parched turf

Salaam-walekum Bhaiya-graduating-at-university-when-I-was-five

From Tinkles and Blytons bought at the utopian Crossroads
To pedas, puns and phuljaris from your native Aligarh
Armed with a bowl of Ma’s terethipal, you made me realize
That someday I would fill a book about being loved and title it my memoir

Well, Perpetually-Fighting-Boy-at-elementary-when-I-was-six

We probably put cats and dogs to shame
How we seemed to live solely to arm-wrestle! 
Look at you now- shy, quiet, trapped within yourself
Will you come alive if I let you wrench my pigtails a little?

My darling Doggy-a-Survivor-on-the-Streets-when-I-was-seven

One Saturday morning, you welcomed me to love you
Frisky, frolicking, fiercely protective
Through wags and wuffs, you led me to a world
Where innocuous windows opened to many a life-changing perspective 

Howdy, Computer-obsessed-Capricorn-Cousin-when-I-was-eight

Your room with the Skull and Crossbones sign was an oasis for both of us
To Rahman’s music, stained glass and Jill of the Jungle would we escape
I blow pink poppies wistfully to the dry winds, hoping that
Forevermore, this lil’ sister’s prayers see you safe through every scrape

Respects to a Habit-clad-Angel-when-I-was-nine

A new school, a new world- it all seemed so harsh and lonely
But there you stood beside me, care and concern writ large on your face
The peaceful face I saw being lowered six feet under nine years later
For you, Sister V, humanity as my religion do I willingly embrace

Oye Cable-wala-on-a-Bajaj-vespo-when-I-was-ten

You brought the stardust of Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup home
With an introduction to Monk, Phoebe, Malcolm, Joey and Bart
Sitting on the roof, tweaking the antennae; you took me
On a journey to appreciate the imaginations of varied creators of art

Rambling down the bylanes of memory
I meet eyes, I meet voices
I leave myself at 10, leave to introspect
The next eight years of my choices

Incomplete does this Ode stand
And incomplete will it always be
For I remain eight, eighteen, eighty
All the time, all at once, you see

Till the next time
We meet on this Train of Time Travel
I dedicate this Ode
To You, for to You do I reveal, in You do I revel.  

The rush of excitement at the screen blinking into life with the calming blue logo..a queer mixture of anticipation and wonder as my fingers break through the CIA-worthy security enhancements..quirky clicks on the foreground of the constant whirring from within, with the whirring and my breathing the only signs of life..

A chic desktop, complete with remnants of expeditions into the dark, dusky and divine.. my eye balls and that of the potent creature resting beneath my palm seek the metallic Chrome, aptly rechristened Gateway to the World.. a moment’s hesitation to steady the frayed nerves and jumpy wires, followed by an unshakeable decision.. the scroll unfolds.. more clicks lead to mini-scrolls..

Letters and numbers whizz awry
Finally settling into melody
Into the Gem do I plunge headlong
For it is never too late to continue my song
Never too late for the spirit to revive, rejunevate, renew
Never too late..to begin anew.

Thank you..for your continued visits, comments and yes, thank you for the frantic calls and messages asking me whether I have indeed hopped a camel to ride the wild!

Ze Vordy Vampire izz backk an’ decked in ze boughs of ze ‘olly!

9th November 2008.. and I turn 18 years, 8 months. Not significant from the conventional perspective, but I rather like the sound of it. 

And since nobody blogs about me, I blog about my milestones at the risk of sounding narcisstic to the core! ;-)

How I miss being little! Wonder if I can travel back in time to being 8 months or 8 years old instead….


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Aitchooooo!

That is how my day usually begins- be it at 0400 hrs on a working day or 1100 hrs on a Sunday! Hyper-allergic and asthmatic, sniffles, sneezes and wheezes are a part and parcel of everyday life! The list of things I should keep away from but humanly cannot include pollen, dust, smoke, incense sticks, strong kitchen scents, perfumes, air fresheners, fluffy dogs, et al. 

Just thinking back on Chemistry Labs in Grades 11 and 12 is enough to make me groan in desperation! I would sneeze for hours at a stretch, grapple with fragile test-tubes I could hardly see or hold while the sneezing attacks lasted, and perform calculations and deductions in the face of impending shortness of breath. A perfect score in the Board Exams is still an unsolved mystery! And religious functions are another source of suffocation, what with the insane crowd, incense sticks, dhoop, over-powering sweet and savory smells, too much of fire around to calm my already frazzled nerves… Memories I would rather not revisit!

Food Allergy Awareness

Tharini, Sujatha, Mad Momma and a host of other bloggers have written about and are promoting awareness about Food Allergies this month, which got me thinking about the way people in India look at it. Most seem to think it is not possible and the guests are merely making a fuss and conjuring excuses. Allergic to coconut, it is frankly frustrating to have the hosts pressing you to thoda chak toh le and turning a deaf ear to your limitations!  My allergic reactions do not manifest immediately after I consume the dish, thus increasing the general disbelief of an allergy to a food product staple to this part of the country. Indeed-it is hard to find a Goan vegetarian preparation devoid of coconut milk and sweets without grated coconut! (Take me away, a secret place.. no-really-I feel like Boston today!) 

And that results in countless social faux pas, as some may put it. Buffets and parties, specifically weddings and socio-religious functions, or even conferences serving Goan food with gusto are not largely meant for the vegetarian species, and the few dishes sidelined are brimming with coconut! (There you go, my excuse for loving and splurging on that sinful slice black forest cake and ice cream!)

I am indeed lucky that I do not (at least, not yet) have any other food allergies- it must be especially hard to watch younger ones not being able to enjoy foods we take as commonplace but could result in fatal consequences if consumed.

I think the key lies in understanding the other person’s situation and remembering that he is choosing neither the allergy nor the consequences. A little more tolerance and acceptance of diversity in bodily constitutions would go a long way in making life a bit easier for both the sides of the equation. :)

Went to the launch of an photo exhibition titled Lifestyle in Goa through the ages, which was a beautiful collection of advertisements from newspapers and magazines of long beyond, mounted and categorized to give the viewer a feel of the Goan people. Very innovative way, and I am already a die-hard fan of old advertisements- thanks to a childhood spent devouring the neighbor’s Reader’s Digests from the early sixties onwards! 

Which put me in the mood to visit Calizz (means ‘heart’ in Konkani, the local tongue) a Museum and Lifestyle store of sorts in Candolim, Goa, preserving houses and artifacts of the pre-Portuguese and Portuguese era. With more than 45,000 artifacts, Calizz is the place to visit to experience unspoilt Goa. 

You can access their information portal here, and I leave you with a few of their pictures which touched a chord with the increasingly lazy nomad in me!


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I see Change
In star-spangled banners
In tri-colors and green
In a shanty becoming a manor

I see Change
In Bangalore, Bejing, Bahamas
In Kenya, proud of its off-springs
In demolishing ceilings of glass

I see Change
In every happy tear in blue
In supporting smiles of red
In united jubilation anew

I see Change
In youth, in children
In war veterans, in workforces
In variously-hued women

I see Change
Strengthened by its causes
A promise of, by, for the people
The new mantra of the masses

I see Change
Spreading seeds far and near
Eradicating poverty, corruption
Wars and inherent fear

I see Change
In You, in Me
As a million become one
Changing to become truly united, truly free.

 

 

“Hope is not blind optimism. It’s not ignoring the enormity of the tasks ahead or the roadblocks that stand in our path. It’s not sitting on the sidelines or shirking from a fight.

Hope is that thing inside us that insists, despite all the evidence to the contrary, that something better awaits us if we have the courage to reach for it and to work for it and to fight for it.”

Barack Obama,

all set to be the 44th President of the United States of America

(Trio of Omneity- I can be found here)

The Road to Nowhere

 

Trio of Omneity- II

Up before the dawning sun
I tread across every fallen bough
To traverse along 
The Road to Nowhere

What would I find 
In kin or in kind?
Where will I be
Would I still be Me?

Mist enveloped my innocent self in blue
Bringing the crucifix of choices anew
Swirling tales of the future tied to a past
With repercussions which sublimely last

A gurgling stream ran along
Trials and tribulations its song
‘Plunge into me’, I heard it say
‘On mine bed may thy troubles lay’

Green giants swished gently down
‘Why, m’dear, do thy need that frown?
Climb up, up into mine arms
Where thy fervor be soothed by charms’ 

Alive in song and spirit
I rejoiced with nothing to inhibit
Drenched in petals and rain
On the Road to Nowhere I knew no pain

The sky cackled with ferocity
Welcoming the masked banditti
With eyes carved out of ice
Filled with vendetta and vice

My Shadow stuck close, startlingly so
Cushioning me as I searched high and low
‘Where are you?’ I yelled to the wind
To fire, water, earth- the eternal blend

Not a gurgle
Not a whisper
Not a crackle
Not a note
Not an arm
Not a hoot

Light and cheer entered many a lair
But found, forevermore, on the Road to Nowhere
Voyaging to complete our Trio of Omneity
My Reflection, my Shadow and Me.

Zap back ten years and offer a gift to this Child of the Universe at age 8- and guess what I would want.

Toys?

Barbie dolls?

Chocolates? *

No. 

Stationery!

An age-old liking compounded by my obsession for books and paper.

I loved collecting pencil boxes. Of course, as kids, all of us waged the my-box-is-better-than-yours-naanananaaa wars with classmates and buddies and got influenced by the shop-wale uncle’s this-one-is-the-latest-beta-imported-from-Bombay sales talk. In primary school, I remember flaunting a yellowish-green one shaped like a music system with a mathematical tables slider and a pink Alladin and Jasmine one which had a magnet mechanism to close shut in particular- although fashion trends and me are poles apart,I was quite a modest trendsetter in such matters!

I enjoyed art class-preferred painting over drawing and drew my own lines and colored within, much to the obvious irk of the teacher! Middle school art was enjoyable, but 50 students cooped to paint within the walls of four topics led to a lot of..ahem..originality! Primary school was the best- a class of 22, we enjoyed teaching the art instructor a craft or two which would require long hours of preliminary work under a shady tree we haunted during break. But the end result was always great- we used to puzzle our-6-year-selves with such innovative concepts of engineering that a weekend would be enough to start from scratch! 

Pens-you name it, I’ve had it-and I think the longest fad was for glitter pens. I have never liked markers much, although they are pretty handy. Like good fountain pens, love gel, and cannot stand certain brands of ball-point pens which make my wrists swell up due to the pressure I tend to apply while writing! Prefer cursive in black to blue anyday-an inclination formed due to my innate love for pencils.

We used pencils in Primary School, and somehow, the habit stuck through middle, high, higher secondary, and now-college. No, I do not stick a pencil in my pocket nor collect perfectly carved pencil sharpening with glitter or flowers, but academics at home and a dark or light leaded pencil-depending on my mood (and the lighting!)- pacify me to no describable end.

Love fancy letterpads! Had won so many from Tinkle, with Chamataka and Shikari Shambu dotting the sidelines, that it became an addiction. Hallmark and Archies in town were constant prey, and I had my own standard letterpad by the time I turned 12- a sophisticated yellow background with a sunflower framed in red in the bottom right corner. 

Now? With deadlines galore and tests on the double? With markets playing peka-boo? With that most important number on the television screen? 

Give me that envelope and let me scribble on it with a ball point refill! 

* That was ten years ago and I was a sincere kid. Now I am a mean Belgian- and-Swiss-dark-chocolate monster. Bring on le rain de la chocolate! Gimme gimme.. *growl*

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